the team kicks ass

he broke up with me. out of the blue... and i'm so thankful. the real thing is often imitated but never duplicated, even though i tried so hard. things don't change just because you close your eyes. i respect that.

these friends i have are amazing. they are there, unbelievably real, and so amazingly real that i have trouble believing it sometimes. Its been what, less than two weeks? And already i look forward to every second i spend with them. These are the people I want to spend time with - the people that are good, real people. Every one of them has things about them that I love, qualities i wish i had. They are kind, and yet definitely unafraid to speak the truth. They take care of me like no other, and i couldn't ask for more.

One of them, in fact, asked me a drunken question that i thought nothing of at the time. I told him that i was in love with someone- that this was someone I'd love for a long time. Someone that i respected as a friend, and that my friendship with him is something worth salvaging. He said to me, "well, what's keeping you away?" and i really just couldn't answer. So i don't know- maybe im scared. Screw that, I'm terrified. But lets go.